My name is johnpaul.You may be
wondering why i want to take my life
to end it all.yes,i have made up my
mind to take my life,to be free.
free from everything. The pains and the shame.
circumstances in this world has made
me a changed person.
person on the evil side.
I am going to tell you how it all began.
My problem began the day my father brought
home a fourteen-inch
set, and a video
disc player that was silver
coloured. I was ten years old, about leaving
school.I was happy,knowing
that we now have a television
in our house,though my father
didn’t allow us watch the television most of the time.
“go inside and read your
books”he always said.
I once heard kenneth whisper
to kelvin”he would soon leave
for one of his business trip.we shall see if he will carry the
television with him”
Our father returned from a
business trip only a month ago
and everyone knew he would
soon embark on another business trip.
I wondered when
he would put and end to those
business trips of his
After dad left for his business
trips we were
already used to, the two pieces of electronics
became Kenneth’s property.
was the first child
of the family. He knew how to
operate the TV and
VCD-player so well as though he
worked in the
factory where they were
In no time,
Kenneth and Kelvin who is also
my elder brother, started bringing
home movies which
were mostly Hollywood movies
called “American films.”
After dinner every evening, they
would slot the
disc in and we all would sit
and watch the
pictures on the screen like faithful believers
listening to the pastor.
Kenneth, Kelvin and
Osarugue, my only elder sister,
sat on the dirty
brown sofas we had then. The rest of us pinned our soft
buttocks to the hard floor.
But i never knew what was coming my